I have spent too much of my life trying to "bargain with God" instead of simply abandoning myself to His never-failing love. But life is a school where God teaches us how to trust in Him and draw enduring vitality from living in relationship with Him.
Some of us need a lot of "schooling."
But we have been given the gift of the Holy Spirit, the interior Teacher in the ways of love, and often He leads us along hidden paths by His gentle guidance, correction, and instruction, "writing straight" with our crooked lines, "outwitting" in His Wisdom all our narrow efforts to keep God at a distance.
Our loving Father has made us for greater things. He knows how to "raise us" to be children and heirs to His kingdom, and Jesus knows how to win our hearts and draw us onward in the Spirit.
Jesus knows, from the Cross, all the deep places that need healing and rejuvenation in our lives.
Then, of course, there is that precious gift that Jesus gives us (from the Cross), His Mother Mary.Totus Tuus! With Mary, I can say those words like a child who sometimes just runs to his Mom, not knowing what's going on, who is anxious, confused, who keeps making mistakes.
She especially teaches us that abandonment meets a tender embrace, a nurturing and strengthening goodness.
And kids run to their Moms a lot, every day.
